Sunshine Blogger Award

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Assalam o alaikum and hello readers!

I am finally doing an award post and no doubt I am happy about it. This time around I was lucky enough to bag the Sunshine Blogger Award and was nominated by this lovely empathetic and definitely kind girl Bhavika. Thank you so much bhavika for the appreciation you have given me by nominating me for this award. It really means a lot to me even if I always fall short of words to thank people when they nominate me for an award and repeat the same old cliched lines in each one of my award posts. I really feel more than those words.

So apparently Sunshine blogger award is given to bloggers with inspiring words and posts as bright as the sun.

No. Okay maybe something like that but basically it is about the bloggers who bring sunshine in the lives of their readers and if this sounds too sun-shiny to some readers (as I am sure it would to one person xD) then you could consider this award as one given to all those thin and tiny rays which are trying to do their part by producing feeble light in an otherwise dark void.  Thank you.

So as I have turned out to be the greatest conformer of all times, here are the rules:

1.) Thank the person who nominated you in a blog post and link back to their blog.

2.) Answer the 11 questions sent by the person who nominated you.

3.) Nominate 11 other bloggers to receive the award and write them 11 new questions.

4.) List the rules and display the Sunshine Blogger Award logo in your post and/or on your blog.

Lets get to answering my questions.

Q1. What/ who gives you peace in life?

Ans. Connecting with the Almighty

Q2. If given a chance, what confession would you like to make?

Ans. That I am not good at making confessions? (You see what I did there xD)

Q3. What do you think is the most positive and negative thing about my blog?

Ans. Well I believe a blog is your personal property, you are free to make it into anything so no one should really tell you there’s something negative to it. You share your life on the blogosphere and people take inspiration from it (or they don’t). They like or learn from it (or they don’t). Your blog is fab, has so much to take inspiration from. Maybe you are too much of an open book and I would prefer anonymity but then again its only about personal preferences.

Q4. How would you define “Life”?

Ans. Something you can’t escape from when you want to. Something you can’t stay in either when you want to. Got to live for as long as have to live.

Q5. What made you blog?

Ans. I owe this to Farees because even though I knew I wanted to write and could write, it was her writings which ignited the urge to create a blog.

Q6. Your favourite quote?

Ans. Okay I really suck at picking favourites. I mean seriosuly. So I’ll just share two which are coming to my mind right now:

“Verily your Lord is Generous and Shy. If His servant raises his hands to Him (in supplication), He becomes shy to return them empty.”-Holy Prophet (S.A.W)

“Always pity the thinkers, for they are cursed with their own imagination”-Atticus

Q7. Book which changed your way of thinking?

Ans. Forty Rules Of Love (I don’t even know what it changed or if it changed something, I really just cried for a week after completing it.)

Q8. My post which you liked the most?

Ans. I absolutely loved “Magical Mommy”

Q9. Favourite blogger?

Ans. Everyone who is trying but xD Farees has to be the one I suppose.

Q10. One desperate wish?

Ans. That I could wish less and be more content with what I have.

My questions:

1. What would you choose between life and death?

2. Which country would you like to tour in your vacations?

3. Should money dictate your career choice and why?

4. You are late for a meeting but there’s an injured child on the road. How will you cope up with the dilemma?

5. Your most recently played song?

6. Happiness is ….?

7. Rainy nights or sunny days?

8. Why are we unable to think of questions when we are given the opportunity to?

9. I know the last one was what it was so here’s a more interesting one. If you were to choose one element or physcial feature from nature to define yourself, what would it be and why?

10. Have you ever suffered a panic attack. If yes, what was the first thing you tried to get rid of it?

11. How much do you sleep in a day on average?

My nominations:

Farees
Sauce box
Wolfish delight
Ashley
Safiyah
Elm
Her inked soul
Another aesthete
Tam
DemureDolls

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50 Posts

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The extremely unintelligible title shows how my mind has rusted over time because of not writing here.

But I had to break this block that had built over time and kept on getting uncontrollably bigger. I want to talk about so many things and yet none is worth an entire post. I was writing my diary a few minutes ago and there I wrote, ‘the reason why I am unable to write something on my blog for a while is either I do not get the right words or I feel like I won’t be writing for the relevant readers’.

I think I was caught up in one of those loops where the longer you stay away from the blogosphere, the harder it gets to come back in again. You are actually avoiding to post something because you fear it would be stupid so you keep on thinking for a perfect restart yet the more awkward it keeps on getting the longer you do not write. Tautological.

It is then that you have to write such a post as this.

As much as I fear that this is going to be such a banal, uninteresting, even obtuse piece, it is also equally important in nature because this would immensely help me to get back on the writing track again.

And what else other than writing about my writings could be a better topic to write upon? (I know there is something wrong with that line). WordPress notified me that I had made 50 posts here. It was congratulating me on the achievement. And although I am not quite sure as to how come ranting, venting, bleeding, puking and pretending you know something on a digital platfrom could really count as an achievement, I am highly pleased and impressed by WordPress’ acknowledgement. One does not find that kind of encouragement elsewhere let alone a well-wished appreciation.

So maintaining my humble composure, as I usually do, I would like to thank myself (this time) for actually letting myself being me. I realized that I suppress my true self at a lot of places either because of some sacrifice I have to make for a loved one or because of societal norms or because I may get more virtues or sometimes simply because I cannot afford to be myself.

In writing however, I never gave up and as much as I am thankful to Allah and all the other people who helped me to get here, I am also proud of myself for not stifling the writer within me. Ever since I was a child, I loved reading and writing. Many of us do. Then most of us grow up and leave our hobbies behind. Most of us are encouraged by our parents and other family members to only seek this useless activity in leisure time. Some of us are even looked down upon, or just dismissed as misunderstood, hard to comprehend individuals of the society.

Fortunately I got a couple of those misunderstood, hard to comprehend individuals of the society as my friends and I entered this safe haven where I could freely write whatever and whenever I wanted without any time limits and word limits to take care of. I would like to thank all those friends and would have loved to put their names in here but today I want this post to be about me. I want to be a little selfish and narcisstic today.

These 50 posts on WordPress are 50 proofs of the writer that lives within me and the amusing part is I do not have to prove this writer to anyone else but myself. These 50 posts are an exhibition of my pain, relief, sadness, happiness, reflections and retrospections but above all they are the exhibition of my ability to weave words into sentences for all of us do feel, but all of us do not write. These 50 posts are an answer to my question which I made on the same blog of When would you write like a writer? These 50 posts are 50 power punches to all those who made me feel I was not good enough or that I was not meant for this or that studying Literature was an emotional decision or that although I could write but there will always be people who write better than me so I shouldn’t waste my time after all or even that writing was too hackneyed a concept which a productive person like me should not waste my intelligence on. Looks like I didn’t quite make a fool of myself, did I? These 50 posts are also an indicator of your love and encouragement. This your refers to all the readers who are reading these words right now. All my followers, all the silent readers, all the accidentally-dropped-on-this blog people; each and every one of you is responsible for this number 50. I know I am a sucker for motivation and encouragement and would have soon given up on maintaining this blog if it weren’t for all of you.

Thank you for sticking with me and thanks to myself for sticking to the writer in me. Sometimes one just needs to let it flow, to appreciate all the typing effort and thinking effort one makes to create a blog post. Sometimes its okay to be selfish and narcisstic. Sometimes one needs to write that first post to reach the 50th and sometimes one just has to start off with an unintelligible title to make it to the 51st post.

Upon reading it from the start, it doesn’t sound that bad after all;D

Happy blogging and stay tuned for more!:)

The Uniquely Me Tag

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Alright so I couldn’t have been more boring since the past few months. But honestly you guys can’t blame me. What else can u expect from a girl with constant headaches who has been at home for 8 good months now and has to maintain this status of a couch potato for the next 3 months. Great! I do understand and realize that people going to colleges and universities these days are way more stressed than me, missing and yearning for a single week of relaxation and that I am going to badly miss this all as soon as university starts but trust me when I say this:

A gap year just gets too much.

Not that I do not feel like writing annnything other than poetry but I just do not feel like sharing stuff because my mind feels confined and restricted in different ways due to this unedning monotonous routine of life these days. Sooo, I finally decided to do something different. I have a few tags/awards in line and I was just delaying them for I don’t know when. But today I finally decided to do one of them!

The Uniquely Me Tag is an amazing initiative taken with the intention of boosting one’s slef esteem and self worth. It impells you to think about yourself, about characteristics which define you, which make you stand out and feel good about yourself. I was nominated for this tag by the awesome Kirithika who really has a little bit of everything on her blog. You must check it out because I always open her blog up when I am needing a random, casual, easy and everyday read. Thank you so much Kirithika for nominating me and giving me a chance to do something new after a long while.

So like with every tag/award (and me not being a rebel) let us post the rules:

1. Thank the person that nominated you for this tag and link to their blog (spread the love, basically).
2. Write as many things that are unique to you as possible: these can be things that you do, say, like or have that make you different to other people or let you stand out. It can be what defines you as a person, a little thing about you that is just simply youor something little known that you think makes you up as a person.
3. Nominate up to 10 bloggers or as many as you like; there isn’t a limit.
4. You can take this tag as seriously or non-seriously as you like; you can laugh whilst doing it or feel contemplative: this is about you, after all.
5. After you’ve written this and if you ever feel like there’s nothing to you but what other people have already said and done, look back to your post and remember that it isn’t true!

Okay so I do not know what type of things should I tell about myself but let’s do this:

1. I am kind. Is it something unique? Talking about the place where I live, yes. It is rare and unique.

2. I love small handmade accessories and if someone made me choose between a dinner and a handmade card, I would go with the latter.

3. I have an undying, unexplicable love for water. I love drinking it and just you know ‘waterrrr yaaay’

4. I have clashing peronality type and zodiac which makes me a paradox in so many places and of course a product of chaos. Perhaps that is why My Colours Float On a River of Grey.

5. Yes I believe in personality types, zodiacs, fate and everything rational people do not believe in.

6. I also strongly believe in rationality, logic and justice.

7. Stars and moons are so real to me. You will find their mention in most of my poetries.

8. I have discovered crying to be an amazing catharsis.

9. I find it difficult to give away information about me in definite bullet points because of my ‘very fluid’ personality.

10. My family desrcibes me as an extrovert and friends describe me as an introvert. I don’t know.

Alright guys so this was it. I feel better after doing this. I am more excited about reading Farees’s answers, I do not know why (or maybe I do xD). Anyways, I have more poetries and a serious post plannedvup. Let’s see when that happens.

Here are my nominations:

Fareeeees

Accidentally Inked

Tam

Saira

L

Saiz

Ambreen

Rizwana

The Versatile Blogger Award

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Hi everyone, I have been trying to stick to writing more than usual and blogging more frequently even though the test date only draws nearer; hmm maybe this is a counter-stress mechanism developed by my brain. Any of the ways, it’s good to be putting ticks on my planned posts and here comes another one of them: The versatile blogger award. I took long enough with my first nomination that I received two more and so I got confused between doing 7 or 21 separate facts but that would be revealing too much of myself so I decided on a decent 10 altogether (no please don’t give me that look😰😮🙈)

Awright so getting all set, I was nominated by these three ammazing bloggers: Thepakistanisgirlsguide (zee and em)Farees and Sara Ahmed. Thank you so much guys, now that you may be aware of my passion for these awards [never mind how long I took to post, things weren’t just going my way 😞(okay I know that’s not an excuse😒) but still..😟😟] I am only so much happy and excited to do these. On a side note, please do check these three blogs out because the funny thing is each one of them is as diverse as Earth’s poles. One blessing with Virginia Woolf’s stream of consciousness writing style; the other full of sensitive sensible advices and anecdotes of two relatable lives and the third full of reviews and short freestyle write-ups.

THE RULES ARE:

-Thank the person that nominated you and include a link to their blog.
-Nominate at least 15 blogs of your choice.
-Link your nominees and let them know of your nomination.
-Share 7 facts about yourself!

So here are some facts about me:

1. I am a Scorpio (zodiac sign)
2. My personality type is advocate-infj.
3. I am usually unable to understand myself.
4. I secretly wish to have Rumi or Shams of Tabraiz in my life.
5. I love shooting stars.
6. I have an undying desire (since childhood) to visit all the houses in my neighborhood and study the interiors.
7. I easily fall in love with broken people.
8. I am a coffee person but still find myself making tea in the kitchen because Farees romanticizes about it so much.
9. People think my hands are adorable and children often hold and squeeze them (for me they are just too small)
10. I love Allah.

So this is it^-^ I hope this helped giving you guys another peek into my chaotic self. I hope lol xD I will try to nominate some of the new blogs I have discovered over time. I may not be able to nominate a total of 15!!

Vidisha kaushik
Hintstolifeblog
Hannah Garner
Geeky Muslimah
Doni W
BEING HIJABI
Maham.
Wolfishdelight
Maeloncholy
Isolated_girl
Zubiya Rauf
the.confused.one
Farees (lol even if you won’t do it again xD)

The Entertainer Blogger Award

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Hey all, so once again this seems to be a blessed opportunity. I had three posts in my pipeline, including this one because honestly speaking life has gotten busier and I am always on the search for some peaceful hours of solitude where I can write my heart out but whatsoever, this can never be an excuse for staying away from blogging and most importantly an award post because they are always such an honour and fill me with great pleasure (Yes I can’t deny that flutter of my heart when I see my name in the nominees yeee 🙌🙌😍😄)

Alright, so I was nominated for this award by auburnrhyme, one of the most mature and profound blog writers I have come across, her posts are dripping with sesne and have that balance and weight of a professional. I would really insist that you check her blog out over here because otherwise you are missing on something real. Thanks a lot Rimsha, you have always been an inspiration.

Moving on to the rituals,

The rules are as follows

  • Write a post  including the award picture (thankuu thepakistanigirls’guide for such a nice pic)
  • Nominate twelve other bloggers
  • Nominees should answer the same questions as the ones below
  • Thank the blogger that nominated you and link their blog

Okay so the questions were short and fun, I enjoyed  them and hope you like reading them too.

Q1. What do you hope to gain from blogging?

Ans. I believe a sense of achievement and contentment because I have always wanted to help people, move people, to make a difference in their lives through my words. (I love writing paras and rambling on and on so I m trying to make it short this time, yes I am having a hard time doing that:p)

Q2. What genre of film entertains you the most?

Ans. Okay so I had to think for a while for this one because I basically do not happen to be a movie person, more like idk what genre thingy you talkin bout man, i just like animated movies but ok, maybe thriller and science fiction. How about comedy? That’s fun too, no? Ok 😂😂

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Q3. Do you consider yourself a writer, and what inspires you?

Ans. I have always been ambivalent about the first part, as much as I want to write and have that passion of making my mark through words, I am always full of self doubt when it comes to being called a ‘writer’ because I attach great importance to this word. For me it is more of something others would tell and judge yet I won’t let any judgemental freak put me down for my passion. Told you its ambivalent!

Inspiration for me comes from everywhere and anywhere, everyone and anyone. It just has to click and voila. This more has to do with my observations linked up with my spiritual connection.

Q4. Why did you choose your particular WordPress username?

Ans. You mean ‘Touufybits’? Well it is 3:30 am as I write this post and I am pretty sure it must have been some 3:40/2:40 am when I made the brilliant decision of merging my not-so-common-nick with tidbits? Wow okay yeah, basically at that time I was too desperate to start a blog and later my bestie seemed to like it so I never bothered changing it😂😂 (C’monnn, its cute!!🙈🙈🐥)

P.S: if you mean tehreemsiteblog, well its just my name.

Q5. What is your favourite book, and why does it speak to you?

Ans. Being an avid reader, this is definitely a difficult one but despite being confused about quite a few, I’d still name Forty Rules Of Love by Ellif Shafak.

Why it speaks to me? Because it is that book which has impelled me to speak less and less about it. The profound and abstruse spiritual connection which I have with this book is what I fear to put into words, it is so sacred and surreal that I try keeping it locked in a corner of my heart. It is about love, it is about everything.

Q6. What is your favourite song, and why does it speak to you?

Ans. Unlike a standout choice in books, one fav song is not only a difficult question but also a pretty unjust one for a music lover like me. There are so many songs I love so much just because they speak to me at so many different moments on so many different levels like please I am the kind of person who listens to the same song for consecutive seven times on repeat!

Q7. What is your favourite photograph and why does it speak to you?

Ans. Is it okay if I say I am not liking this business of picking favourites because it is forcing me to practice favouritism upon my own choices and my choices are defiantly competing against each other causing a complete mayhem inside me? Okay probably it is not okay if I say that soo…..I am assuming this has to be from one of my recent clicks:

Although they are two different clicks, their soul is the same. I have tried to capture the crescent moon which people are often looking for at Tumblr. This photograph speaks to me because the crescent is important to me, and it is important to me for more than one reason, if you didn’t notice before, the pics which I have shared of the book ‘forty rules of love’ also has the crescent and some stars engraved in gold on the front cover.

This is it for today, I hope you guys would enjoy reading since I was extremely happy with the kind of response I got on my previous award post. Now for the most difficult task, nominations, let me see how fair I can get :D:

A learning poet

Bipolar blogging

Blasphemously Yours,

A messy world

Booksandbakes1

Harshuweb

Scripted sheet

Layers of life

Joan’s food for thought

The reading dove

Herinkedsoul

Simple Ula

Liebster Award=)

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Woah…Okay I am a little confused as to how to start this one because I want to say so much and so less and it is colliding together in my mind giving off eccentric waves of frequencies which I am unable to decode. Anyways, I guess you guys won’t sue me for such an awful introduction to this post. Maybe what I can say is that I found myself thanking Allah with disbelieving eyes when I saw my name nominated on this amazing person’s award post known as La mehum. Thanks soo much Maham for nominating me, I have always wanted this one!! maybe because I am bad at making myself known to people, yeah I find describing myself hard! But you guys definitely need to check this awesome gal out who in my opinion is the powerful diva of words. Her sarcasm, quick wit and cryptic poetries will leave you baffled for some time!

Anyways I digress, so for all those who are new to this, Liebster award is one given on internet only and is present on internet only. I believe it was created with the intention of making quiet bloggers like me open up a bit and help others discover them a little (I am truly thankful for your initiative award creators). Nominated blogger answers 11 questions asked by the one who has nominated them and to keep the stone rolling, they are supposed to do the same: make 11 questions and nominate 5-10 bloggers:D 

Alright so Maham gave the hassle-free (for herself) option of choosing any 11 questions which had been asked from her (I completely understand your busy schedule mah’m dw;D:P). And without creating anymore hassle for you, I’ll directly get down to the ones I selected for myself xD

1. Are you a social person?

Well okay I am not a very social person who would literally just strike a conversation with a girl sitting next to me whom I have known for barely 300 seconds or ya know, the kind of peeps jumping around from one group to another but I am NOT antisocial either. It is more like a kickstart-and-see-if-it-works-out-with-the-other-person kinda thing. If frequencies match, you are my lifetime bud. If they don’t you would never know what clay I am made of! I am basically more of an introvert:@🙈🙈🙈

2. Favourite dress?

My everyday wear are long shirts with trousers but if talking about fav😍then oversized baggy shirts, sweaters, trousers-anything oversized is my thing!😍 (Shh it is so cute and comfyyy!)

3. Meaningful silence or meaningless talks?

So you won’t find me beating about the bush in this one because it is definitely the former, meaningful silence is much more important to me, much more valuable because it is food for my soul. However let me reinforce it should be meaningful, otherwise I am always a fan of communicating, interacting, explaining and debating!

4. If you were given an option to restart your life, which foremost thing would you like to change?

Big question, big answer?  Well I would rather not have life at all instead of changing something about it because however it has been with its flaws and failures and mistakes is how I accept it, otherwise I would always be an unhappy, whining, grumpy brat. Having eternal peace is a more appealing idea.img_20160917_164115

5. What is your favourite social media?

Dang it xD! Okay, as you all might be guessing in light of my first answer, I am not a fan of social networking websites and sooo…not much to choose from but whatsapp (if it counts:p) definitely has to be the most useful app I have ever had because like it is my kinda thing? :’D I love texting, I am an all-time texter xD

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6. What super power would you like to possess?

Okay to get straight with this one, I would really want to be able to read people’s minds because let’s deal with it, I have major trust issues xD Not that speaking about it would make any difference to how people plan to betray me at any point of life but that is really something you could avoid only when you have some superpower of that sort xD

7. Name three things you dislike with a passion.

Behold le listeners! xD

1. Lies (they are horrifying!)🙅

2. Unkind people (you need to give space amd care to those under you, if you are a snobbish cruel dude, I really wish you didn’t exist)😠😠

3. Mosquitoes (I swear I wonder everyday why Allah created them :/)😵😵

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Btw the list is longer than these three items, but honestly stubbornness and intolerance are really the root to most of it, we need to be more accepting of everything (yeah i know I need to be more accepting of the mosquitoes!)

8. Do you like T.V serials?

Okay this is a little weird coming from me because I usually guess out the stories and sometimes find them too stupid (I am talking about paki serials because uhm indian and turkish?😏👐) but I am STILL A HUGE SERIAL..LIKER? (I like the way how rearranging it a bit would make me a serial killer xD)

9. What is the foremost quality you look for in people?

Definitely kindness, since it leads to so much more: patience, tolerance, forgiveness e.t.c. If you have kind people around you, you are blessed!

10. Do you have any hobbies?

Was a reader, am a reader, will stay a reader 😂😂

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11. What would you like to invent?

A SOUL HEALER!! (Trust me that would be the greatest wonder of science)

Awright guys so this was some insight into who am I, I think this award was highly helpful. And I hope you don’t hate me after having read this (was there something like that in it?:p)

Now as per the ritual, Imma give my 11 questions^_^

1. Your blogging inspiration?

2. What is your opinion about mental health issues? Or how do you even interpret this word?

3. Would you describe yourself as an introvert or an extrovert?

4. Tea or coffee?

5. Any blogging goals?:D

6. That one thing you always carry with you when going out

7. How would you describe pain?

8. Honest opinion please, revenge or forgiveness, why?

9. If you were told you have 48hrs left on this planet what is the first thing which would come to your mind?🙈🙈

10. One thing which you love about yourself?

11. Do you prefer crying your heart out or keep it inside and what do you actually do?

There are lots of amazing names I can put below for the nominations, though I would try to put those first who have had less of a chance with this (I know how it feels like not being nominated even for once while someone else puts up their fourth or fifth xD)

Words with wings

Rizwana

P.S

A learning poet

Farees

Anjali

Abhishek

Anyone can opt out as per their choice, there are more peeps but next time;D

 

Thank you!

This is a short and unprepared one to mark a small milestone on a long long journey and thank those who became my car, my fuel and my motivation. I was happy and surprised to see that I had received a 100 likes on my blog:

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In most honesty, I had not even expected a 10 because maybe I maintain a streak of underestimating myself everyday. I could perhaps also reason this with the fact that I did not know what I was doing when I even created the blog. I had no clue, no direction; only a vague idea that ‘I should write.’

However, my uncertainty wasn’t as worse as my lack of determination which I experienced a few days after creating this blog. I decided to stop a meaningless activity performed for unknown people yielding unstable results. But there was one person who strictly came in the way of this decision. It was Eraj, a most dearest person, so close to my heart!

So I write this to thank her, and to thank every single person who made this possible. Every single person who took the time to click this site address and view some of the rambles and musings and broken verses I dare to call poetry, hah! And touching on that ‘like’ button.

I know this is nothing too big, I know that there is a lot what I could and should achieve and in fact these 100 likes are still too small a number. But to me they mean a lot because they mark the moving of my car, that it is not at a halt or dead end and that I have to keep climbing uphill to bag more appreciation, to move more hearts and to pursue my dream of writing.

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